Let Me Be God's Living Instrument- Chair Time Revelations...

Chair Time With God... Last week I had the unique privilege to be ministered to by Pastor Steve Carter, who stressed that as ministers especially, while chair time is important for all believers, for ministers, our own, unique, non-studying for a program or sermon related "chair time"-our one and one time with God and the Lord is even more essential to us. ... ... This was a confirmation of a revelation that the Lord made of point of helping me refine my focus on about a year an a half ago, which was around the same time that my grandmother passed away and I was surprisingly diagnosed with anxiety. I say surprisingly, but I have to say, after returning from time spent with family after my grandmother's passing I had to go in for a 5 year check up...and the Doctor said: "Is there anything else you would like to talk about..." I tell you, it was the Lord that led me to be brave enough to talk to my doctor about what I was experiencing. After that was a burden or load that I was lifted off of me, I began to notice that my level of distraction when it came to my own "chair time" was becoming easier and easier to do and that I was even very protective of it. This multi-tasker with ADD was learning again that sometimes, God should be more than enough to hold your entire focus, and that cycle of the world should not be a distraction when we are spending time with the Lord. You may think that it is easier said than done, and I will tell you that would be the truth. But...When I made the time to focus on Him solely, when I was protective of my time with Him, so that I was faithful to Him, I was able to be more aware of how He is faithful to me, to us all really, in big and small things... Now you may say, well chair time is really hard, I have a family, I have kids...I have... So I will share where I have found some "Chair Time" that is undisturbed...The small little bench in my shower. Sometimes, I even hit my knees during my prayer time- my discussion time with God. When we start to get too caught up in our posture during prayer, and not the position of our heart during prayer- we are focusing on the wrong thing. When I realized that to talk to our Heavenly Father, He is more concerned about our hearts, then outwards appearances, I found that my relationship with Him was able to grow and deepen as well. ...Keeping all that In mind- the Title of this post was a song, a saying, a prayer, that the Lord laid on my heart during this time, that I want to share, that I am being led to share with you... ...This was my prayer "Move Me; Use Me; Mold Me; Show Me; Let Me-Be Your Living Instrument." I even sang it to a melody that was placed on my heart and sat there singing this prayer to Him. Then I was moved to share this with everyone I could...To the point where I suddenly recalled a blog that I had created years ago and hadn't posted on in almost 5 years...I endeavor to be faithful to Him in the small and big things, because The Lord is certainly faithful to me, to us all- in the small and big things.